Paint. The word makes me feel excited about possibility and potential,
but also terrified of at the same time. What am I really afraid of... in art? In Life?
I am afraid that if I step outside the bounds of what is normal, safe and accepted...
if I explore my braver, more creative side,
I will discover that I am a failure... that I am ordinary and insignificant.
I am afraid of uncovering the truth that I operate on wishful thinking
and that deep in my core I am really no good.
I am afraid people will see right through me
and discover that I have no idea what I am doing.
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In my last post, Overwhelmed Mommies, Finding Ever-Elusive Balance, I discussed the challenges I had been having staying on top of all my responsibilities as a caring wife, first time mommy, and a small business owner. I mentioned a little about how having things in writing and on a schedule helped me deal with some of my stress. It helped make everything feel much more manageable. This post is a sample of what an ideal day for me could look like.
A little moment of honesty: It is really hard sometimes to take care of myself and the home as a first time mom. I put everyone else's needs first. It is so hard to find time to do simple things like shower every day, brush my teeth (I know, yuck), much less do my makeup. And most days my hair is a disaster or the carpet needs vacuuming. I can't remember the last time I scrubbed the toilet or even attempted a workout. Dishes and laundry seem to never get done. They may seem like simple things to someone else, but everything all together feels overwhelming at times, and so I think some weeks I just check out and stop trying. If I feel like everything as a whole is too much for me to handle, I just let go of all the little things all together.