woah, i cannot believe i haven't posted anything in over a month! things here have been pretty crazy.....working a lot, preparing for the little one, living out of a suitcase. this weekend we are out of town which is so nice! an opportunity to step away from the hectic busy schedule of life :)
i am so grateful that everything is going so well...all of my tests from the doctor, etc. have come back great and the little guy seems to be doing well! i can't believe how time is going by so fast....less than 3 months or so to go! i'm going to post some more very soon but while i have this down time i'm going to pick up my bible and read some.... much love.....
aren't these just too adorable? i am loving all of these little things...
"to everything there is a season, and a time to every
purpose under heaven. .....He has made
everything beautiful in its time."
the past few weeks, i've been wrestling with this great...i mean great desire to find another job. obviously, i can't right now because i am pregnant and now is not the time to be finding another job. i'm working where i am now because i was in school to do cosmotology, but the Lord had other plans and we needed to start saving :) of course, i would really love to pursue photography. i feel so stuck because i work all day everyday sometimes 6 days a week, go to sleep, wake up, and do the same thing all over again. i guess i've just been...discouraged. i know what i am to do, but i feel so distracted and busy with life and 9-5 work. i have worked at this job for as long as i can remember, i am thankful for a job, yet there are days though where i know that there is more. because of the stress at work, i've seen how i've been and dang, how awfully selfish i really am! i've seen recently how i'm so selfish with the time when i'm not working. it's not really "my" time anyway.
i guess for now i will patiently wait. things are about to change. really change! and this is only for a short, temporary season. i miss my sweet long times with Jesus and just sitting in His presence and reading the word for hours. i miss all of that so much. it's amazing how seasons change and time goes by so quickly. though life is so busy right now, i know the Lord sees this. i know that He sees my heart and desires. i can only pray that He will continue to soften my heart and prepare me.