Confession time.

I've written and re-written this post so many times in the past two months, I don't even know where to begin anymore. Do I stay positive, or write what I'm really feeling? Do I pretend I am so overjoyed and excited for every second of every day, or do I admit that I'm terrified half the time? Am I allowed to be excited to be pregnant while DREADING the newborn stage, coming {way…