I already know my answer...but a lot of women out there have no idea about theirs. For 12 years, I struggled with my weight, I binged, I purged, I didn’t eat, I suffered from chronic IBS, bloating, gas and pain, all I thought about was food, I loathed my body, I loathed myself.
At the time, I had several dietary rules/beliefs:
1. Eat as little fat as possible.
2. No dairy.
3. No meat.
4. Non-fat frozen yogurt doesn’t count as anything.
5. If it comes from the ‘health food store’ it’s fine.
Meanwhile, I read everything I could get my hands on to try to fix myself and deal with my eating disorder on a psychological level. Nothing worked. And then, randomly, an old friend gave me a book that turned everything I had ever thought about food, eating and eating disorders on its head.
I’ll tell you the name of the book in a second, but first I’ll tell you what it told me. It told me that I was starving myself, that I needed fat, that processed foods and even the way that I was preparing my ‘whole’ foods, was debilitating to my system.
I changed my diet overnight. That was 5 years ago. Since then, I have not been sick with IBS and a spastic colon, I do not think about food, I do not binge, purge or restrict my eating, my weight is stabilized and healthy, I enjoy food...and I like myself.
Turns out I didn’t really have an eating disorder. Or a weight problem.
I was malnourished, sick and starving, and this predicament was causing me to act disorderly. I would not dare say that our society doesn’t have a terrible problem with dictating an unhealthy female thin prescription - it does! What I will say is that if all of these females had access to real (not corporate) nutritional information and food, they would have the strength to fight back.
The book is called Nourishing Traditions by Sally Fallon, and it details the traditional diets followed by cultures around the world before they were ravaged by industrial society, pesticides, white flour, white sugar and processed food - not to mention cancer, birth defects, heart disease and diabetes.
Here’s what I eat now:
1. Butter, pure coconut oil, olive oil
2. Raw, local, organic grass-fed dairy
3. Organic, local grass-fed meat
4. Whole grains (soaked)
5. Sourdough bread
6. Raw, fermented vegetables
7. Organic vegetables and fruit
8. Nuts (soaked and dried)
The list goes on and on...but the what
isn’t half as important as the how and the why
. I didn't know that nuts and grains are indigestible without proper preparation. I didn't know that coconut oil can not be stored in the body as fat and has to be used as energy. I didn't know much!
I’ve been writing this post in my head forever, and had nowhere to put it...it doesn’t belong on my blog
. But, it’s my 5 year anniversary of being healthy - and I want to help other women who are struggling. I’m not a dietician or a nutritionist, though I do have a M.Ed. and over 500 hours of training as a yoga teacher and workshop leader.
If people are interested, I’m thinking about doing a call where I could tell you about what I’ve done and answer questions... Let me know....(I might charge a tiny fee to cover my costs and time, but I’M NOT SELLING ANYTHING - this is about support and sharing!)
Thanks for being my community. We have so much to handle with our kids, work, spouses, our political system - our bodies should be easy, strong and feeling good...don't you think?