Well this is my initial-test blog... I am not sure at all what I am doing, but if it sucks I can just delete it right?
Work is the same thing... day in and day out... because of current circumstances I am looking for a second job... nothing hard or with any sort of career goal in mind... just something to bring in a little extra cabbage.. I think it will be hard but in the end I think it will be worth it if for no other reason than to show my husband I am trying to make amends for the things I have done. Its hard though, because some days its all I can do to just get through the normal routine.. but then I think of what is at stake and I take a deep breath and just decide to deal with what comes at me. I am so used to finding unhealthy ways of avoiding any unpleasantness and this goes directly against my old ways.. UGH
Does this even make sense??? Am I rambly and vague???