i've found more reasons to be thankful throughout the day. the most poignant reason is a blog
that i have stumbled upon. her husband died. it seems it was sudden from her posts. she has children and is trying her hardest to keep it together. i so feel for her. for me, even to think about being in her position is too much for me to take. i can't fathom what it would be like. i could raise two kids by myself. i could provide. but could i ever convey to them the wonderfulness of their amazing father? i could spend a lifetime trying and never make a dent. i feel sad after reading her blog. it makes me feel incredibly stupid for being frustrated and overwhelmed. like a baby. the post that tells that her husband passed away simply states to tell the people that you love, that you love them because you just never know. she didn't know. i admire her strength and courage. reading her blog really puts things into perspective for me. i am now even way more thankful than before and in fact figured out a reason to be thankful for those pesky hospital and doctor bills. they are bills for bringing a life into the world. not bills to pay for when one is taken away.