I am a mother of 2! I have a 2 year old daughter and a 6 month old son. I am engaged to the best man in the world. My children have different fathers and I am with my sons father. I work a full-time job at a news paper office doing advertising.
Life has it's rough spots. Some days more than others. My daughter is in her terrible 2's and my son is teething. My life is a mess. My job is a stress filled hell hole and I'm beyond exhausted.
My daughter misses her father and wishes she could live with him. She is 2, she doesn't know what she is talking about right? I just feel like I am failing her in some way shape or form. I feel like I am not doing something right. She gets to see him every other weekend and every other holiday and half of summer. But for her its not enough. When she is there he doesn't spend as much time with her as he should. I feel so bad. Things with her dad and I aren't the best. We had our bad times and those times have made me into the mom I am today, but I want the best for her and I want her to be happy. I just wish it wasn't this hard. I just wish I could take away all of her pain.
September 16th 2017 I was supposed to get married. My fiancé and I fought way too much. We fought about my daughter and her father and wedding planning was just too much on us. We were going to therapy and that helped. But I still never feel good enough for him. I feel like I am worthless and that he can do better. I feel like I'm just slowing him down.
My son is a teething machine. He doesn't sleep and barley eats. I don't get much sleep with him so I am ubber tired. I feel like I'm not doing the best I can for him either.
What is life anymore???