So things around here have been a bit on the crazy side lately (understatement of the century). My husband and I have been battling family illnesses and changes on all fronts. Now, we are facing some challenging circumstances which directly affect us, our future, and our kids... and we are having a difficult time figuring out how best to handle things.
I mentioned in my last post that I was feeling in a slump. I really was. Not being able to work out due to the weather, the illnesses, and other things really took a toll on me. Over the past couple of weeks though, my husband and I have been trying to spend more quality time together at least one night a week... no kids (at least they will be in bed), no tv, no computers, phones, etc. We have even resorted to playing board games or just sitting together snuggled up talking. This has done wonders for me, I have to say. Having some time to remember what things were like before they got so complicated is wonderful. It has also helped us strengthen our bond, which makes everything easier.
I have also decided to head up a team for the Promise Walk for Preeclampsia in June, on Lily's first birthday actually, which will be special. I've reached out to friends, family and even my healthcare providers for support. When I look back and realize how close we came to dying, and look at the statistics of how many people do die annually, I find myself feeling extremely blessed.
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This feeling also makes me realize that there must be a purpose for me in this world, or else, God would have allowed me to die. I still don't know what it is, but I'm trying to find it. It's hard to drown out the voices that have haunted you for so long and really determine what it is that you want to do, or where you want to go in life. I'm trying to branch out and get involved in more things around the community as well. Hoping that I can find my place in this great big world.
For now, it's enough to know that I'm a most-loved wife, mother, and friend... and that I'm consistently evolving into the person that I'm supposed to be... even when I can't see it clearly.