Monday night, my beautiful Granny left for Heaven, and although I miss her immensely, my heart is happy that she is no longer in pain, and, is free to sing and dance in Heaven.
Granny had been in and out of hospital over the past few weeks. One day mUm would call to say she didn't think she'd see the morning, the next, Granny was saying that she would be here on Christmas Eve, so making the decision to spend a fortune to get out to Australia, when we'd be back here early December anyway, was definitely a frustratingly hard one.
But, I did make the decision for Michael and I to fly to Australia, and although I truly regret not arriving earlier, I was able to spend two days with Granny before she passed. Two days, well, more like a few hours just sitting with her, talking with her about life and, seeing her smile and laugh as Michael ran around, chatted, hugged her and kissed her hand.
A few hours!
Almost two years since I saw her last and our time together came down to a few precious hours, how is that fair? Although I know regrets are pointless, what about resentment for living so far from home? What about jealousy in that while, I was only able to spend a few days every year with her, my family, back home, simply had to drive 40 minutes to see her?
Even so, those few hours with her, were absolutely precious. I was able to tell her how much I loved her, that I wanted her to rest and find peace, and more than anything in the world, she was able to spend time with her Great Grandson.
I know that Michael will never remember her, and that breaks my heart, but, seeing her beautiful last few smiles with him will be etched into my heart forever.
Granny is now in Heaven, standing like a little girl beside her mUm and Dad that she lost so young, and I know she is looking down on me, on all of us, smiling beautifully as she always did.
And, I know she will be there watching out for me, for Michael, and I know that when I dream of her, that it's her way of popping in to say hello.
Lord give me the strength to get through the service on Tuesday.
Granny, I love you and I hope Heaven is just as beautiful as you imagined, and ever time I hear this hymm I think of you walking forward on this path.... I Can Only Imagine