Hello friends and readers. It has been a while since I have updated here, but the end of school and a fabulous trip to our Hometown in New York have kept me away from the keyboard. I would love to tell you in detail about our Excellent Adventure, but that will wait until another day.
Today I am writing to say goodbye to one of Julia’s dear friends and fellow cancer warrior, Ellie. Yet another angel has joined the ranks of those that have gone before us and obviously, at eight years old, entirely too soon.
How old were you when you lost your first friend? or loved one? Me? I was 10 when my Nana passed and I know how that rocked me to my core. It was my grandmother though and that is the way nature intends it to be. Oldest to youngest. My daughter has lost too many friends to count and she is EIGHT! It rips at my heart and hurts my soul in ways you can only imagine.
So it was with much dread, angst and grief that I approached her to tell her about Ellie. How do you break this news? Why can we not protect our children … all of our children? This should not b happening to babies!
After I told her I had some news about Ellie she looked at me with two big tears running down her face. She knew before I told her. “But Mommy she is going to camp with me in a few weeks! How can I go without my friend?!” I am sick. “Well Jules, Ellie will be there with you for sure, just not in the way we were hoping.” She resolved there and then that she would be doing something special for Ellie and her other friends when she got to CampCare next month.
She also enlightened me on a game she had taught her friends to play while in 1st and 2nd grade. “All I have to do is think of something special and it goes straight to Heaven. Right now I am sending Ellie a trampoline.” Apparently she and her friends started this when she lost a friend a while back. Krista was her buddy in NY and they went through the first year of Hell … err… treatment together. She told me they used to send great presents to their friends and family in Heaven and, “Mom, Jenna Grace even sent Christmas Trees!”
I can’t argue with the love and heart of a child and I think I love her game. I am ashamed, however, that I never knew about it until now and shudder that though this is a great coping skill, that my baby ever needed to come up with it to begin with.
Tonight as we put on our pink dresses to say goodbye to our friend, we will be wishing and sending her ocean breezes, seagulls and clean beaches. Pretty great, huh?