When I was younger, I never thought that I would be a stay-at-home mom. I had thought that I would finish school, work for a while,
get married and then have kids. I guess I never really gave much thought to
what would happen after I had my children, but I also don’t think that it
would’ve mattered because from what I have learned, nothing is like it seems on
Leading up to having my daughter, I was working full time in a dental office. I had just moved out into my own apartment with my boyfriend,
and was contemplating going to college. I was 20 years old, and thought that
life was great. When I found out I was pregnant, I did everything that I was
supposed to – I read all the books, watched all the TV shows, and went to the
birthing class my hospital offered. We frantically looked for a bigger place to
live, and lucked out because my mom ended up having an apartment open up in one
of her rental houses.
A month before the baby was due, we moved. It was exciting and scary. I religiously watched all the TLC shows – Bringing Home Baby, Baby
Story, and the ones about delivery. I knew what to expect – a baby that slept
all the time, never cried or was colicky, went to everyone that wanted to hold
her, loved all her baby gear; an all around easy “normal” baby. Boy was I
surprised when my baby didn’t do any of those things!
I had your typical first time delivery – I went to the hospital with a “false alarm” just to be sent home. I ended up back in the
hospital less than 24 hours later, and had my daughter the next day. It was a
loooong delivery. Thankfully, I really liked my hospital. I had a private
birthing room with a large tub, excellent nurses, and chocolate cake. I ate
tons of chocolate cake – the rest of the food was terrible, but the chocolate
cake was to die for! Violet came out screaming – and screaming loud!- and she
never stopped. She was a loud baby, one that would only quiet down when she was
on my body.
No, she wouldn’t sleep in her hospital bassinette, she wouldn’t let the nurses hold her without screaming, and she wouldn’t let visitors hold her either........