Our family is leaving Nicaragua the beginning of December because our funding has run up.
However last night Adam came home and said I should leave earlier
because the flooding here is getting so bad and it's only going to get
worse. We now have to park our truck at the end of the road and ride
horses through waist deep water...camp is officially an island. As you
can imagine this is hard to do with kids, so I'll be stuck at camp for
the next two months until we leave.
Although I don't like the thought of leaving early and not seeing Adam for a
month I also don't like the idea of sitting in my house for two months
or trying to hold on to kids while riding through muddy, snake infested
So I emailed my dad last night and asked if I could come stay with them
for a while. He wrote back and said that he'd be thrilled to see us but
because Hilary (my step-mom) is having hip replacement surgery two weeks
before I would get there it would be good if I could stay at a
Now I totally understand not wanting company soon after you've had surgery,
especially someone with three little kids running around. And they even
went to the trouble to find me another place to stay close by free of
charge. I'm not angry or annoyed in the least...but I am a little hurt.
It was just a little bit hurtful to have my dad say it would be best if I
stayed somewhere else, especially since he never sees his grandchildren
and hasn’t even met the newest addition...little Miss. Payden.
I can't help but think of how my mother would have jumped up and down for
joy (literally, she used to do that when she got excited) if I said I
was showing up on her doorstep with grandchildren...hip replacement
surgery or not.
My mother passed away from breast cancer when I was 16 and these are the
moments when I miss her. Sometimes I just miss having a "mom" someone
who I can always call and talk to, who loves me no matter what, who's
always excited to see me and can't get enough of her grandchildren.
Someone who jumps up and down simply because I'm her daughter. I really