This morning started off cheery as Princess and I walked off to school with her farewell gifts to her teachers and classmates. With her signature big, wide smile, the Princess even told the Rock "Bye! Wait for me to come home then mummy will homeschool you and me together, ok?"
Outside the Princess' school I met an ex-JC classmate and had a great time catching up but my mood dropped with a phone call from my mum when she announced that a friend of hers has passed on suddenly. I knew this person and I was equally shocked by the news as her. As the news sank in, I couldn't help but teared as I was having my breakfast sandwich and tea.
It dawned on me how fleeting life can be. We read many "tell your loved ones you love them because life is fleeting" messages on Facebook and emails but nothing hit me as hard as a call on the phone like that.
Images of my husband, my mum and my children quickly flooded my mind. I asked myself if I have loved them as well as I could and let them know without a shadow of doubt that I do.
Immediately I could think of ways I can do better. Saying more "I love you" won't hurt, those piercing dagger stares that says "try me one more time and you'll see" can definitely be scaled back, more hugs, less computer and iphone and the list goes on.
I know there is nothing we can do or prepare ourselves for the demise of our loved ones; shock and sadness will surely be part of it. However, I do not want to live with any "I-should-have" after their departure; I want to know that I have loved well and they know it.
Today, I WILL love better.