I am a middle child. They say the worst placement is in between girls. I had the experience of being a little sister and a big sister. I had the experience of being in between two very different people. I have the gift being able to see many points of view.
I am still in the middle. It is a theme that dominates my life.
I am in the middle of keeping teenage girls quiet at 1 am and littlest girl and her dad quiet at 7am.
I am in the middle of an environmentalist and a wasteful lifestyle.
I am in the middle of all religions and no religions.
I am in the middle of famous people and homeless people.
I am in the middle of my life.
I am in the middle of conservative politics and liberal politics.
I am in the middle of the ocean.
I am in the middle with maintain relationships with three different daughters, a former husband and a current partner. All of whom only have me as a common denominator.
I am in the middle of the way people used to conduct business while being inspired by the new business models.
And sometimes, just sometimes I wonder what it is like to have firm footing.
To have a point of view that includes no others. A position or view that does not sway. One that others need to work around.
What it would be like to not be in the middle, to be an edge? Not to be the concrete that holds together the odd mosaic that is my family.
And for once be a simple rock.