Yesterday my little girl got her ears pierced. We did it with her cousins; it was exciting and thrilling for her and she hardly cried at all. Proud Mama moment. In spite of this, I’m left feeling sad. Like a part of my baby’s innocence is now gone, never to return. It’s like she’s growing up and I made a conscious effort today to assist in that. I know its silly, but it’s how I feel. I cling to her innocence. I love when she needs my cuddles and I savor every time she cries and I’m able to ask “why are you crying” and she responds with “Mama, I just NEED your cuddles”. I know she won’t do that forever and I want her to. I want her to play with dolls for much too long, not have feelings of rejection from others, not get her heartbroken, and not grow up too fast. Did I fail as a mother today? Should I have waited until she was older? Should I have put it off until she, as an individual, could make a conscious decision? I don’t know the answer. I just know that today, my first child, the love of my life, got her ears pierced and it left me feeling like she’s growing up too fast and I assisted in it.