I have a new Mantra … and yes I came up with it all by myself… and it only took me 45 years!
We are all set on a particular journey but we can choose the path we travel.
I found this to be true during the course of many struggles AND joys in the first part of my life. I am hoping, as I start the second part that I will continue to act on this. I know what it means to be dealt a bad hand. I know what it is to wallow in the self pity. I know what it is to embrace the pain. I know that if I continue to make certain choices it will head me back to the road I really didn’t want to be on. I know now that there are ways to deal with the bad times that jump up in your way or try to derail you on your “journey”.
I have, in my stumble through the years, chose some really not-so-good ways of dealing, some disasterous ways and some fantabulous ways! I have been duped into thinking that because somthing or someone comes into my life that I must embrace them and try at all costs to hold on. I am sure I have also bypassed some extraordinary people and experiences becasue I was so busy searching out the nonsense.
So I have not been blessed to come into this world with a great support of family or money in the bank. I wasn’t given the skinny -beautiful gene and these, as it turns out, were blessings in disguise! Lord knows, I can be pretty sure my friends aren’t “hangers on” looking for the handouts or the fame! They are here because they, like myself, are getting something else out of relationships with friends. I have been forced since childhood, to build my own character and make it strong enough to withstand the forces that try to knock it down. I have had to fight for much, learn to let go of a lot and I think I finally am learning to just look ahead and enjoy the jpurney for what it is.
How was that for a heavy Monday morning babble. Hey, when I finally learn something I think I should be generous enough to share! Just sayin’ ….