Another birthday is headed my way. On September 8th I will turn 46. No condolences are needed. Really.
Yes, there are things I don't like about it......
~ When I am filling out something online, I am now in the 46-54 demo.
~ Still getting my period. What's the point?
~ I feel like the wrinkle cream commercials are directed at me now.
The 50's are glaring at me. At 50 I can live with my parents in their "Over 50 Adult Community". Ugh. Shoot me.
Here's the thing though, and I'm not making this up: I feel better about myself now at 46 than I did at 36 or 26. I feel wiser, more rational, sexier, more confident and more comfortable in my own skin than I did in any year prior to this. I feel like I have a real "presence" in the world. Though I will be honest and say that I have contemplated botox more than a few times for this one vertical wrinkle between my eyebrows.
Okay, a lot more than a few times.....like right now.
If I were single, I am pretty sure that I would be a cougar. As much as that word makes me cringe, my sex drive is about triple what it was when I was in my 20's or 30's. My husband is having a pretty rough time keeping up with me and he'd admit that to you in a heartbeat.
I love the woman I have become.
I am proud of how I've taken all my ups and downs and evolved them into a really successful business. All by myself.
I love the mother I have become. This one comment could fill a two part post by itself. I'll save this for another time.
I love that my parents treat me as (almost) a peer and that I no longer feel like I have to explain myself and my actions to them. They finally "Get" that I can manage my life, my home and my child rearing.
I love the huge circle of friends that I have grown and nurtured. Some of them I have known since I am 11 years old.
I love the home I have helped to make and how it's this great comfortable safe place.
I love that I finally like my body. The imperfections I saw in the mirror when I was 26 no longer feel like imperfections. My skin "fits" me, perfectly.
Yeah, I am a little freaked that I am on the down-slide towards 50, but I can't get stuck in that. I'm just going to revel in another year of feeling really great about myself.
Happy Birthday to me!