If you're reading this, firstly don't be alarmed. I'm not some nut-job trying to freak you out, I am infact...You. Just several years down the line. wanting to wave my magic wand and send you a few little pointers my dear. Fairy Godmother style!
Firstly, there are some things you need to do more of. I know you never really think deeply about these things but that's why I'm pointing them out. You know all those afternoon naps you like to take on weekends? Yup. Keep them up, sleep as much as you can! Cram hours of sleep in as often as possible because after 3rd September 2010 you will barely have enough sleep to function properly. So take full advantage because I'm telling you-You're going to be walking around in a sleep-deprived haze for the first twelve months of your sons life. After that you discover a caffeine addiction so you're only in half a sleep-deprived haze. On that note it's probably best you brace yourself for not enough sleep for...well at least the next 18 years.
Also you know you weren't really a big drinker? Well love, get yourself bladdered! Enjoy letting your hair down, you don't always need to be the sensible one. Go crazy on one of your nights out, get so drunk you forget the night's events. Your young, enjoy it! Because after you've had your son your alcohol tolerance has dropped right down and after one glass of wine you've given yourself the idea your the sexiest woman on the planet followed two minutes later by loud snoring. Yup, your a lush on one glass of vino these days so man up and take one for the team once in a while!
Oh and another thing you should do more of is spend time with Jamie. Take full advantage of dirty weekends away on a whim, late night cinema trips and cheeky sundays consisting of macdonalds drive through breakfast in your pyjammas, sofa days with dvd's and lots of 'grown up' time. Because quite frankly the most time you get alone these days is laying on the sofa after bedtime, staring at the tv screen too knackered after a day of football, stories, cars and painting with Josh to even contemplate using the last morsel of energy on anything other than following tonight's Corrie storyline! Yup your relationship is stronger than ever but romance is hiding, way out back these days!
As for things your shouldn't do. The first one is spend anymore time worrying about having a baby. Or not having a baby as the case may be. One miscarriage doesn't mean your unable to have a baby, you are and you will and you will be the mummy you always dreamed of. So don't spend another minute of your time wasted on fruitless thoughts. Spend them sleeping or getting drunk instead!
Another thing, maybe don't spend so much money. I know you like clothes, new haircuts, nails etc (I've seen your real bank statements remember and I know where you hide them!) but you know some things come along and suprise you, take you unawares and you will wish you kept some of your earnnings tucked away in your nest egg (you know, the one you always PLANNED on starting!). With your expensive taste you know you will want nice prams, baby furniture etc and (humor me here) say you fell pregnant without planning it how much would it stress you out not being able to afford the nice things you want? Yeah exactly. Don't worry you don't need to explain it. I know your materialistic with 'pretty things'!
Another thing I would say, don't sweat the small stuff. We all know your a 'deep thinker' (tortured artist style comes to mind!) and sometimes you are your own worst enemy. But you don't need to waste time worrying about what people think of you, worrying if your dress for work is going to make you look middle aged or slutty, worrying your friends say things behind your back, worrying about what to cook for your dinner party at the weekend. It's all not worth the stress. Trust me when you've got your toddler clinging to your leg, a university application to submit, a house that needs cleaning, dinner that needs cooking and a boiler service man whos rabbiting on in your ear...all while knowing you have an entire day like this to get through before bedtime...well then you are allowed to get stressed. Everything else doesn't matter really!
On a serious note though. You've always been reserved. Sensible. Be spontanious once in a while. Get the tatoo you always wavered about getting, don't be embarrassed of telling people your a scrapbook-addict because you'r actually very good at it and even manage to make money from it (see here) and deffinately don't worry about Jamie. You know all that potential you always knew he had but worried he would never realise it until it was too late and he's pushed you away? Well he pulls it out of the bag. Big time, sister!
As for your parenting. I can't say anything to you about this. You always wanted to be a certain type of mummy, always wanted a certain type of relationship with your children. Don't worry that is ready and waiting for you. Don't change a thing on that front. You are the mum you always dreamed of being. Just by being you.
Now off you trot, go get yourself a slightly less expensive outfit (and put the money you save in savings), get the girls and go and get bladdered, your only young once!
Love Chloe xx