"Live your life like no one is watching." Sandra Hamlett
This line popped into my head while meditating this morning. I'm not sure if I read it somewhere or if it is uniquely mine. I could use the positive reinforcement right now so I'm taking credit for it.
After meditating I started writing about this during my morning pages. I wondered when I started paying attention to the eyes on me instead of living in that moment of pure joy? Do you remember what I'm talking about?
Think back to those moments of pure freedom when you were fully in the moment. Some of you might have to drift back to a time when you were a child and your imagination stretched beyond your mind. You weren't playing at being a super hero, you were a super hero. A time when imaginary friends weren't imaginary but flesh and blood.
Or maybe it was hearing a song you haven't heard in years and you belt it out as loud and clear in your car or the shower. It's just you, the music and the lyrics. Can you recall closing your eyes and feeling the rhythm deep within your core surrendering your soul to the movement of the dance?
What happens to make us forget these moments of purity and live as though the eyes of the world were always on us? Eyes that judge followed by negative words - "You can't... You shouldn't... You aren't.."
We stop the play. We stop the music. We stop the dance and live a life of ordinary desperation.
I've lived the ordinary. I've lived the desperate. Give me bliss.