Goodbyes are not easy for me. Maybe I shouldn't look at this goodbye as goodbye. For now it is only temporary.
My fourth child, my baby of four and a daughter leaves tomorrow morning to go back to college. It has been a wonderful month with her at home. For being number four she is a very independent young woman, and yet she counted on me to help her get ready to leave.
For now it is temporary but because I have had three before come and go during college and then college come to an end and they start their own lives, it is bittersweet. I am so proud of her and admire her hard work and goals to do well in college and beyond.
I struggle because my children are the center of my life and it is hard letting go. Watching them go out on their own. Need me less.
And then I think of all four of my children. They still need me. Maybe not in the same way as when they were younger and more dependent. But I am a phone call, text message, email, car ride away and we do connect.
They know that I would stop my world for them and that makes goodbyes more bearable. Knowing my children are in my heart and I in theirs is a good feeling. I choose to enjoy that rather than say goodbye.