I'm not sure if the lines have blurred because my work has taken over my life or because I haven't slept!
My work requires me to travel a lot. I live on the east coast, but have clients on the west coast, so I work late a lot. I have a very unusual job in that I work with celebrities and people in the film and publishing field.
I love to travel. I love creating videos. I love reading and writing. So, my work and my hobbies are nearly one and the same.
The problem is, they bleed into my family life. I have clients who have become friends. I have books sent to me for my daughter to read or my son or my husband. Everyone in the family benefits from my job on many levels. But, there's a down side. I live, breathe, eat and sleep my job.
It's hard to be gone so much. I am away about 8 months out of the year. Sometimes my family can come with me, sometimes just my husband. I always bring back little gifts, I email, I call. But, toward the end of those 8 months my family gets a little tired of not having me home. And I don't blame them. I get homesick as well.
I don't know what the balance is. I try different things to see what works and what doesn't, hoping I'll find some magic formula that will make my work and my life and my family all one.
I often wonder what other ambitious mothers do? Do you suffer from guilt? Do you weigh your odds of work vs. home? Is there a way to have everything?
I believe everything you do, say, feel, eat, etc. should be done in moderation. So, when I work late through the week I try not to work at all on the weekend. I try to balance it out. I actually set a timer to certain jobs I do that I know will absorb me.
I strive for balance. Sometimes I achive it. Sometimes I don't. But, the point is, I never lose sight of the fact that I need to continue to strive for it.