I've been told I'm a procrastinator. I have to admit, I am. I don't know why I became that way..but I am. And you know what? It truly sucks! (LOL) Yes it does! I used to be so ... umm...like OCD- obsess getting everything done on time, being on time at places, and so on. Now...well... I often just don't care anymore. I don't know if it is part of my depression or if this is a trait I picked up along the way of my "way ward life". Some would almost say it is part of my "rebellious" personality. I could laugh, and agree.
Funny...there are certain things if i need to get done and be done, it will be done. While there are other things I just wait to do it "later" which turns maybe into days or weeks. So...I'm weak. Ok...here is a better term: Lazy!! Ok! Ok! I admit to it. I've been just lazy.
My therapist likes to think of it as an "addiction"... of course I like to laugh with her when she says stuff like that. But she knows why I get this way too. Its just not the depression, it also has to do with my PTSD. I know that it sounds like a pure excuse. But at least this behavior is NOT hurting anyone in any way...just me. I'm sure you probably wondering what that has to do with it. I have Kitchen issues. It is where my abuse was at. So i don't spend a lot of time in my kitchen. It might be why I'm so broke too (eating out alot).
So today...after telling myself this for days is going to get up and CLEAN THIS HOUSE!! It needs a spring cleaning anyhow. There really isn't anything great on TV and movies can be watched any time. And since it is a very nice day out there, most folks won't be online to chat with. I come on during my breaks (due to pain in my back and legs), which I do alot. Even the Aleve is not helping with the pain. So I do what I can today and tom marrow ...& Monday. As long as my house becomes spotless.
Of course, my cat Baby, won't like me cleaning her room. She likes it just the way it is. LOL.. but I have to remind her it is a community room and we have to clean it. She will, of course, walk away with this teenage attitude and whine her way out to the living room or to hide in my room.
First...I'll have my hamburger n' cheese sandwich!