Ok so it's really Tuesday but for me it's kinda like Sunday. I only work 2 days a week Wednesday and Thursday. So for me Wednesday mornings are like Monday mornings. With Megan being outta school today it seems even more true.
Today however I feel a little lost. I still can't get Cynthiaa and Aiden off my mind. Couple that with Tueday Whitts passing on Friday and then Harper Stamps steady improvement after a rough start. I know that things happen for a reason. I get that. What I have trouble with is I always try to find the reason. I just can't wrap my mind around it. I know that I am suppose to have faith that God has a plan and I should let go and let him take care of that. I know that but I just can't. Why did 2 moms loose their precious little ones while out in the world other moms take for granted the miracle that they have been given. I understand that reproduction is just basic science in action but it is so much more profound than that. I remember a quote from the movie Parenthood “You need a license to buy a dog or drive a car. Hell, you even need a license to catch a fish. But they’ll let any asshole be a parent.” How true is that.
I know this post has gone nowhere but that's just where I'm at today.
I wish it would just snow some more maybe that will lighten my mood.