You have my prayers and it is in my heart that you will get better. You have the perfect attitude for a complete and positive life. I wrote a book when I too was going through a similar situation as you. I wrote, "In Search Of Paradise" and never looked back. That was over thirty years ago and I am still writing and living regardless of what the doctors predicted.I'm a mom to a toddler, a college student, and I'm battling breast cancer. I have a very full life and we have a lot of fun.