Keeping my head up when things are rough is hard. I will admit I had a pity party last night, but today I will keep my head up and accept that sometimes things are out of my control. Sometimes no matter how hard I work at something or how much effort I put forth things may not work out in my favor.



Two weeks ago I turned in a resume and letter for promotion to Detective Lieutenant. I have been a Detective since 2008 with a 1 year leave of absence. I also have a degree and 2 years of… Continue

I remember the feeling like it was yesterday, but it was nearly 5 years ago. It was a stinging combination of physical pain, emotional pain and failure all wrapped up in one horrible package. It woke me from my sleep and brought me to tears at 3:30 in the morning. I woke CJ up, and told him I thought I was having a miscarriage.



CJ told me it was fine, and sat with me for a while while I called the doctor's office. They told me to go back to sleep and see them in the morning. Needless… Continue

I had a conversation the other day with one of our new female officers. She is a great girl and very eager to learn, but she has been having some problems lately. Unfortunately they are problems many females in law enforcement face. It's sexual harassment, but not by her employer or coworkers. This harassment comes from "The Wives", and it is painful.



Law enforcement is a dysfunctional family. I love the men I work with like I love my own brothers and uncles. We have bonded, and we… Continue

That's right folks. I'm a great big hypocrite. I have been so absorbed in my life and my worries over the last few years that I have forgotten about others. One of my posts from earlier talked about a friend who wasn't there for me when she said she would be. It hurt me, but I realized today that I have not been an emotional support to others much either.



I had a friend in college, Amy. She was a beautiful girl, but struggled with her self esteem. It hurt me to watch her in her… Continue