It’s been a long week, folks.



Jimmy’s service, Grandma’s service and reading the stark words of a fellow blogger who’s just been diagnosed with cancer, I realize that staying positive is more than just a rainbow and kitten-nose outlook on life. It’s really freaking hard work!



I watch the way others cope, not in a judgmental way, but more in a “if that works for them, would it work for me?” introspective way. At… Continue

My dear hubby Peter has a thing for chocolate cake. He has a love for all things chocolate, genetically predisposed to it, I suppose, as his mother is the same way. We’ve been married for 10 years, together for a little over 11. And the one consistent in our life has been his overall disdain for any chocolate cake that attempts to be a Bill Knapps cake. I don’t recall if I’ve ever set foot in a Bill Knapps restaurant before, they’ve gone out of business and shut their doors forever….stealing… Continue

A child died today.



A funny little boy with an abundance of freckles and a unique way of pronouncing his r’s. A boy with an infectious smile and a love of Poke’mon and video games. He was a son, brother, friend, loved by many, missed by all.



World, you have no idea what you’ve missed out on! No concept of what you’ve lost. He left behind unlived dreams, unfulfilled potential. He leaves the memory of laughter, a history of strength, and the legacy of a… Continue

Today is all about randomness. No real reason, just lots of little bite-sized niblets of Mayhew goodness.



Sleep:



I had the chance to unload my kids on their Grandmother for the night and treat myself to a late night movie. Movie was a no go…as SOMEONE should be skinned alive for not possessing the simple skill of telling time! I now possessed an empty house and all the time in the world. I ran a luscious bath full of blistering hot water, sweetly scented bubbles, and a… Continue

"In most marriages there is a 50% chance of divorce. In marriages where there is a child with a life-threatening disease the rate goes up to 80%.”



Peter and I were sitting at our very first cancer group meeting of any kind at an American Cancer Society R.O.C.K. weekend in Orlando. At Disney World. Oh yes, we were sitting in the happiest place on earth being told there was an 80% chance that by the time we got our child to the 5-year survival mark, our marriage would be on the… Continue

Saturday night I was laying in bed trying to figure out why I couldn’t sleep, what was keeping me awake and it sure wasn’t because I wasn’t tired. All week it’s been a weird feeling, like I’m waiting on something…a thing I should know but can’t quite put my finger on. Wrestling with my pillow Sat night, it was a did-i-leave-the-stove-on-is-the-door-locked-what-the-heck-is-wrong! kind of feeling.



Then it hit me.



It’s July 13th.



We mark so many monumental days… Continue

When I was pregnant with Nathaniel I was two weeks overdue and had convinced myself that there was a good chance that I would be pregnant FOREVER. Perhaps I’d incubated the one baby that would be perfectly content to stay in my uterus and could only be pried out with the words, “It’s time to leave for college, you little freeloader!”



During that last two weeks I had a lot of VERY strange dreams. There was the one where I was trying to get in an elevator and my belly didn’t fit (and… Continue