Do you ever feel as a stay at home mom that your in a rut?? That you are living this life 24/7, 365 days of the year?? I hit a time today where I went through all the options of what I need for me and to get some adventure back into my life. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE MY KIDS, but you know now that I am done having kids and we are constantly getting less needed, I start realizing there are more things that I want to do!! But how dare me think that way or figure that I have an actual say in things????
I don't know about a lot of other mom's, but sometimes I just feel like I do everything for everyone else and forget about me. I do go out on girls nights, I go shopping by myself and do take advantage of doing some things for me, but sometimes it just doesn't seem enough. My husband and I haven't had a vacation in 8 years. Yes, you read that right, 8 years!!! If we travel it all revolves around family or the "Least" expensive route, when in fact we are okay financially and can afford to do things,we just opt not to. I don't know, maybe its a self-pity day, but I just seem to feel like I am in a rut.
I have gone through every option of moving to somewhere completely different to get some excitement, to downgrading our home so we have more money at our disposal to do some more things. Huh, just not sure what it will take yet. I have an idea, which I know will not make a lot of family around us happy, but in all honesty I jsut care about myself and my own little family. I will keep you posted, but wonder if there are any other mom's who feel like this sometimes??
On a brighter note, I went a full day without the twins getting into the bathroom! WOOHOO, Yesterday they proceeded to unroll all the toilet paper (yes brand new full roll) and spread it around the entire main floor of the house. The day previous, they nicely washed their hands in the toilet. Somehow I have got to get back on my game and really train those 3 and 4 year olds to shut the bathroom doors!!!
I am sitting now, having a beer and thinking that although I am in a rut, I sure do have a great life and great kids. Even if they feel the need to yell at me, roll their eyes, stomp their feet, cry, scream, freak out all before 9am. I STILL LOVE THEM, I STILL LOVE THEM!! :)
Giong for a break now that daddy's home. Phew countdown for today is over!!!