Looks like it is going to be harder on me than I thought. I am miserable in my job and emotional to boot. I lost my dad October 11, 2015 to a massive heart attack and his birthday is Friday. I don't want Friday to get here. Mom found out that there is money coming to her from his social security in death benefits and thought it was just going to be a couple of hundred dollars. Well, it is going to be enough to pay off my dad's funeral and still have enough to put back for a cushion for her.
As far as my job goes, I am a sales assistant for a company that would rather bring people in from outside the company to fill positions than to hire from within the company. There is not much of a turnover here anyway so there is no room for advancement and they seem to think that 25 cents an hour raise once a year is going to make a big difference. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for the steady work but I don't want to be an assistant for the rest of my life. I want to be my own boss and have my own craft business. Bad part is that no one seems to be ordering from me. I make plastic canvas items. I started working on hand sewn items because I have to get my sewing machine serviced (and then learn to use it) and making those items has proven to not be in my talent wheel. I can embroider but don't know if that would sell either. I don't know what to do and feel like I am doing all of this for nothing.