Mothering has always been one of my passions.
I dreamed of it, planned for it and waited for the opportunity to come my way.

As I was waiting for the right timing to have children and to find my
prince charming, I keep myself busy. I did not allow myself to let go of
my dream or to waver from the path I set out for myself. I stayed
focused and determined that motherhood would be part of my life.

Taking this path was not easy and I am not saying everyone else should
do the same as I sure had days where I felt depressed and lonely. Days
where I did not know if my dream of being a mother would come true and
it all felt like it was a hopeless wish and desire.

During this time to keep myself busy, I put myself through university,
finished my degree. Worked lots of different jobs. Went on a full-time
mission for my church to New Zealand and the Cook Islands and met as
many people and families as I could.

I kept myself focused on my dream by studying families. When I went into
the home of a family, I watched them. I picked out aspects of their
family life that I liked and disliked. I recorded the good parts and
thought about how I would like to implement it into my future family I
dreamed of.

I was blessed to have my prince charming sweep me off my feet and to
have many cherubs come into my home. Having many children has been a lot
harder than I thought it would be. This might sound weird but...I knew
having a large family would be a lot of work and I would have to make
sacrifices but...I really had no idea just how exhausted and emotionally
spent I would feel some days.

On these days I rely on my passion of mothering to get me
through. I think about what I believe in, what I hope to achieve and
what my dreams are for my family. It helps me to know where I should go
as a mother, what changes I need to make and what direction I should
take in planning and preparing my cherubs to be the best they can be.

I have a set list of what I feel passionate about as a mother. As my
children grow older I am finding my list sometimes changes. It seems to
flow with the family and with what our needs are at the time.

Here is my current list of what I am passionate about:

* healthy eating

As a mother I find if I stick to my passions, I feel secure, I feel at
peace. I know what I need to do, where my time should be spent and where
I should go with leading and directing our family. Right now...I have
lots of work to do and I am so thankful for the opportunity to teach my
cherubs and to mother them the way I want.