Have you ever found yourself waiting? Maybe you're waiting for medical news? Maybe you're waiting for that proposal? Maybe you're waiting for change? Wherever you find yourself waiting, it's hard.
I always thought I was a patient person, but lately when I have to wait it becomes an inner struggle. I tell myself to have faith and to leave it there. BUT then I let myself get worked up and I worry. "What if things don't turn out the way I hope?" "What if, what if, what if???"
Then, I realize it's out of my control. I can't make the email come any faster. I can't make the results reveal what I want to hear. So....I have to give it over to God and leave it there. He already knows what is going to happen and he knows the fear, worry and anxiety in my heart. None of this is going to change the outcome. I just have to believe. Believe that it will all work out the way it is supposed to. This is so hard y'all. It challenges me in so many ways.
I think about the story in Mark 4: 35-41 (NIV) when Jesus is at sea with his disciples. A furious storm comes and the men are very afraid. They wake Jesus and ask him, "Don't you care if we drown?" Jesus tells the waves and the wind, "Quiet! Be still!!" and the waves and wind die down. Jesus then asks the men, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?" The men then say to one another, "Who is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!"
This story brings chills to my spine. I don't want to be someone who doubts my faith in Jesus. I want to trust, I really do. I think about my children, my husband and I think if I can't control circumstances so that none of those individuals never feels pain or disappointments; then I have no choice other than to turn it over to God. He will provide. He always does. It may not be on our time; most likely it won't be. BUT it will all be okay.
Take it from a certified worrier, things are so much easier to handle when you let God have your worries. I'm a work in progress y'all. I still struggle with worries and I think it is a big part of my personality BUT I am learning. I am learning to let God have my concerns, my fears, my praises...my all. He wants it all and He wants to help me work through them one step at a time.
My favorite verse is Matthew 11: 28-30. It says:
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Friends, if you like me often find yourself feeling weary and anxious I feel for you. I have made a choice to keep handing over my worries to Jesus.Won't you give it a try?
Worry is like a rocking chair- it gives you something to do, but it won't get you anywhere. ~ Author Unknown